a changed woman

i don't feel like a new woman
i feel like a new creature in god

one who has met the something in nothing.

i don't know if met is the right word
i don't know if it is felt
i didn't feel it
i innately knew that there was something in nothing.

i was sitting outside on the deck the other day when i
thought of a word to describe myself

hermit.

yes, hermit.

the word just came to me
i was as surprised of the word as it was of me.

i went to england
and did centering every day
morning and evening for an hour

i got up had two cups of coffee
and then would open up the patio doors
sit in my chair wrapped in a shawl and
commence my centering.

i like it very much.
you might say i like it too much.

i meditated in the ruins and it was a treat.

i am so caught up in honoring my god
that that is all that i can think of

he is the creator
i am his creature

thank you
thank you
i love you
love you
love you.

i am starting to go to mass and communion in the morning

i am realizing that i carry the christ god within me
i am his hernmitage
and it excites me
and pulls my breath away.

i met self in england
and it wasn't any big thing
but it is everything

it grounds you
pulls you down to your inside
everything is calm there
everything is ok there.


i realize i want to honor love and serve god
in this world and be happy with him in the next.

being
david frentte was right
being is where it is at
we just don't know it.

once we have tasted being
there is no going back


i think now i can teach centering prayer because
now i know where it is going.

each one of us is indeed different
and centering will take you on a journey
the likes of which you and i in our feeble minds of
understanding can never comprehend.

i think about ego
maybe ego will get involved in this

i pat her on the head
a little push on the butt and ego is
skipping away
happy to know that i still love her

and why wouldn't i she is part of this journey too.

imagine if everyone became aware of self ---

then i realized there are different degrees of awareness.

i am 70 and i wonder where it is going to take me.

i decided for the rest of the year
august 16th through december 31st it is going to be a
prayerful year for me.

wake up at 6:30
good morning god

jump out of bed

toiletries

one cup of coffee.

murphy

welcoming prayer
one hour centering a.m.

i am soft to change - orange sun with my arms upraised and my hands extended
in praise.

affirmation
i am open to being vulnerable.

spiritual reading.

lectio
journal

cleaning house
curves.

two hours writing in the library.

lunch.

reading.

centering p.m.

spanish

dinner

quiet reflection or
spiritual reading.

bed.

bed at 8:30 or 9.